Changing your life

I've decided to start changing mine once again. This time I'm trying weight watchers - again. Not their biggest fan, but I wanted to try. So far I either eat way over my points or way under. I have to track during the day and not just sum up at night, that's a mistake.

I hate the way people have started looking at me. I hate when thin people call themselves fat. Reserve that word for us girls who are actually fat. If you are under a size 10 - get over it - you're not fat, maybe plump, not fat.

I need motivated people to be around - any takers? Instead I have what I like to call "pushers". They say " Oh just have the one, it won't hurt" YES IT WILL!!!!! Stop enabling the fat girl to be fat especially when you know she is trying to change. 100 lbs to lose - IT CAN BE DONE!!!

Reminders

There are times in my life I am fortunate to get an eye opener. A reminder as to what I have in life to be thankful for. I have my own personal set backs - visiting the Dermo often is always fun, but thankfully it's been mostly preventive at this point. Having pieces of your largest organ removed is a poignant reminder that we are human and can destruct. Soak in every laughter, hug and moment with your loved ones.

I am trying to be the best human, daughter, sister, Aunt, girlfriend I can. I offer help, I lend a hand, an ear, a brain cell or two to finish a school paper.

Lots of information to absorb in on "How to Live Life Better!" , "The healing power of juice, raw foods, organics, detox detox detox." All the infomercials have the product you can't go on living without and call yourself a hardworking intelligent person. Your workout, health, everything will improve! blah blah blah.

What does it all mean to average people? Getting tired of being told everything we do is wrong. Who are these researchers? Sometimes I just want to crawl in a hole - but there could be bugs there. ewww.

Sleepies kickin in.

Initiation into the wild world of bloggers

Be Gentle.

Life has been turbulent in these troubled times ~ hasn't it for everyone? Me and my man .... let's call him Red.... (think I watched My So Called Life? ) are in a crossroads. We are both not where we want to be at this stage in our lives. Living in middle class Long Island is not all it's cracked up to be. Long Island has many treasures and if you are one of the wealthy select few, you have the funds and the time to enjoy all it has to offer. We are not.

Career situation for both of us is a sad state of affairs as well. The universe needs to guide us to our new home where we can exist in peace and feel at one. There have been many considerations ~ many friends have moved to land-locked sections of NC, but that thought is unbearable. My mind and soul exist to feel the wondrous movements of the ocean. There were also the thoughts of heading west - say St Paul or Milwaukee. That light is getting dimmer by the day for this New England lover.

Red & I had his family & my Dad over for dinner tonight. Dinner was a success - we all connect so well. Red & I can talk to each other without saying a word. He does almost all of the cooking and is learning to make a lot of the staples from scratch. Makes me proud to have such a talented, interesting, caring person in my life. I do my share by doing almost all the cleaning. Cleaning is more of a meditation then work for me anyway. Cleanses my soul to clean our home.

I apologize for the in-cohesive thoughts - perhaps due to the late hour.

I bid you adieu.